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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
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9:50 am
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| Thursday, February 1st, 2007
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7:20 pm - waiting for my real life to begin...
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Hi.
It's been a while.
I could tell you that I've really missed you, but that would be a lie.
Sorry, I hope that didn't hurt too much, L.J., but I guess I don't really have a lot to tell you lately.
Kind of in a rut, I guess.
No, not kind of, I'm in the worst rut ever.
EVER.
I have no idea what I want from life or where I'm going.
I do know that I don't want what I have right now: nothing.
I just wish I knew what to do about it.
I really want to go back to school, but there are complications with that.
I can't leave Rachel here alone again, not now that mom and her boyfriend are getting married.
I just don't know what that would do to her.
I don't know what I would study anyway.
I thought musical theatre, but I don't think that's for me anymore.
Oh, L.J., I feel so alone, too.
I don't mean to be so emo with this, but I guess there is no other way to go about it.
I keep getting so close to finding someone I can click with, but then something incredibly unlucky happens.
I'm unlucky in love.
And it's not just romantic relationships.
I'm just not very good at developing lasting friendships lately.
Oh well, things have to get better, right?
I guess I have to find a better job now, too, since I don't have any where to go this summer.
The BBV cut back my hours, because our regional director is a B.
What would you do?
current mood:  lost
current music: Colin Hay
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| Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
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6:16 am
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things you probably shouldn't do at 4:30 am:
dye your own hair.
whatever, it worked out.
its even and i didn't stain my skin.
(except for a little bit on my fingers, but i don't care.)
i like it.
if you don't, ask me if i care.
afterwards, i felt like i was on a sitcom and someone had told me i wasn't spontaneous.
in. your. face.
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| Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
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9:16 pm
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oy vey...what is this life!?!?
i just had a dream that i was an alcoholic, drug abusing, bisexual private detective.
oh...i abused women, too.
a dream? or a prophecy?
prophecy.
fo sho.
my tummy is grumbly in a bad way.
jenna is having a bad week i think. i don't know.
that makes me sad because her birthday was this weekend.
bowling was cancelled tonight.
sad face.
judging by this entry, if i didn't know better, i'd say i was drunk.
but i ain't.
taint.
abc=ass ball connection.
good one, right?
grumble grumble grumble.
love you, bye.
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| Thursday, November 16th, 2006
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6:17 pm
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| Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
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10:31 pm
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1:40 am
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words/phrases i hate:
treats
chowder
ghosty tricks
cream (in the sexual context)
blubber
galoshes
sudoku
sprig
words/phrases i love:
kiosk
paula deen (not really a word or phrase, but just her name makes me smile)
poop (i'm a child)
granular
hot damn
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| Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
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10:09 pm
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Okay.
Today was my first court appearance, not including my adventures in jury duty. It was alright. I had to pay $105.00. $65 in court costs, $10 for having expired tags (the wreck happened a week after my birthdays), and $30 for ACDA or whatever. The judge laughed at me because I said something wrong, but whatever. I was in and out of there in less than half an hour.
I guess I should explain why I was in court.
I was in my first car accident ever on September 18. How exciting???
It really was my fault, but I blame the rain.
I agree with Missy Elliot. CAN'T STAND IT!
No one was hurt, except Franklin.
It cost $1,700 to repair him. My deductable was $500.
So, because I couldn't break in a storm, I paid $605.
Yeah, whatever.
Remember all that stuff about September being better?
That didn't really happen.
It was worse.
What scares me about it is...I don't really care.
I've become a big emotional void lately.
Instead of feeling emotional feelings, I go straight to the physical feelings.
When I should be angry, I just feel hot and prickly all over.
When I should be sad, I just feel like I was punched in the chest.
But most of the time, I feel nothing.
It is just a phase.
It is just a phase.
It is just a phase.
Okay...I just felt an emotion.
SHUTUP ABOUT THE CEREAL.
I'LL GO BUY MORE.
I hate that one person can make me feel (or not feel, as of late) so much. I know what to expect, but when it happens, I'm still surprised and punched in the chest.
OKAY...POSITIVE THINGS...
Lost starts tomorrow.
Is it lame that a tv show is my first positive thought?
Wait, I DON'T CARE!
I can't wait.
I really like FearFest.
I'm doing something called "Heckle and Howl."
Basically, I dress up like a werewolf, stand in a window facade and make fun of all of the park guests.
I don't actually get to do that until the last couple of weekends, so until then, I'm just doing whatever they need me to do.
On Saturday, I stalked people on International Street and scared the poop out of them. SO MUCH FUN.
During the day, for Nick or Treat, I "host" the kids party.
I say "host" because I really just play with kids for 9 hours. We play dance games, we color, we play bean bag toss games, and we watch a magic show. I love my job.
And I've been doing promotional appearances on the news for FearFest.
So far, I've done two of them and I have one more on Friday.
I learned how to do my own makeup for them, and let me just say, I LOVE doing horror makeup.
WANNA SEE???
( SCAAAARY PICTURE )
Cool, huh?
Alright, thats all the positive I can handle right now.
I can't hold on to a hooded sweatshirt.
I name one my favorite, and a week later it goes missing.
This has happened twice now.
Boo.
No, really, get out of my house.
I can't wait to go back to school.
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| Sunday, September 10th, 2006
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8:34 am
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| Friday, September 8th, 2006
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2:11 pm
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September has been as bad as August.
Things might look up soon.
If not, I'm going to make them.
I have to work this weekend.
I thought the Pop Star Challenge was over.
I thought wrong.
Sunday is my birthday, and I'll be spending it at Kings Island.
yippee.
5. In September, I bought 120 crayons.
6. In September, I put together a bookshelf all by myself and felt accomplished.
7. In September, I finally found the color of bedsheets I wanted for only $15.
8. In September, Little Miss Sunshine was a very good movie that everyone should see and enjoy.
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| Saturday, September 2nd, 2006
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12:14 am
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Okay, so the first day of September wasn't that great.
But you know what?
There are 29 days left.
How's that for a silver lining?
I have had so much caffeine and nicotine today,
it is not even funny.
I don't even smoke!
I'm supposed to have dinner with Maggie tomorrow.
I'm excited about that, its been too long.
I did a lot of talking on the phone today, so, for that:
REASONS WHY SEPTEMBER IS BETTER THAN AUGUST:
4. In September, I caught up with some good friends.
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| Friday, September 1st, 2006
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2:52 pm
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I'm not going to lie to you, Mr. LJ, August was a mess.
Overall, it was a big, depressing mess.
Sure, some good came out of it, but not for me.
This is why, my friend, September will be the best month ever.
I think through the course of this most GLORIOUS month,
I'll post reasons why it is good.
Let's begin, shall we?
REASONS WHY SEPTEMBER WILL BE BETTER THAN AUGUST:
1. In September, I turn 20.
2. In August, people made plans and broke them. On the first day of September, I overbooked my lunch plans, but managed to keep both dates, without eating too much food. People keep dates in September.
3. In September, I get to see Jenna P. Brucoli and Super Coli. In August, I didn't see either of them.
Okay, so I only have three reasons so far,
but there will be more.
MANY MORE.
Because September will be the best month ever.
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| Sunday, August 20th, 2006
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11:11 am
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So.
I saw Snakes on a Plane.
When I first heard about it, I thought,
"Wow, this is ridiculous. How are they making a movie that so closely mirrors my life?"
So, I HAD to see it.
I HAD TO.
So, I put down my $5.50 and grab a giant soda and I get ready for some snakes and some planes.
I come to find out, the main character's name is
SEAN JONES.
Excuse me? What?
I KNEW then, that my life had been plagiarized.
This movie was basically my life story.
Except Samuel L. Jackson's character was a lot more of a B.A.M.F. than my FBI escort.
So, I'm a little upset that I wasn't consulted at all on this matter, but I'll get over it.
I'm just glad that such a genius piece of cinema came out of my life adventures.
GO SEE IT.
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| Thursday, August 10th, 2006
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3:43 am
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1. My ex . . . is straight.
2. I am listening to . . . Tim Gunn and wishing I was in his arms.
3. Maybe I should . . .go to bed.
4. I love . . .lamp.
5. My best friend . . .gets humped by my dog whenever she comes over.
6. I don't understand . . .what I'm supposed to do.
7. I've lost . . .that loving feeling.
8. People say . . .that I'm pale.
9. The meaning of my screen name is . . .well...its my name, followed by the word Anonymous...I picked it because its fun to say.
10. Love is . . .a battlefield. Duh.
11. Somewhere, someone is . . .dancing in the street.
12. I will always be . . .pretty much amazing.
13. Forever seems . . .like a lifetime?
14. I never want to . . .kick a puppy.
15. My mobile phone . . .plays the theme from will and grace.
16. When I wake up in the morning . . .i check my phone to see if you've called.
17. I get annoyed . . .when people are late.
18. Parties are . . .excuses to cuddle.
19. My pet is . . .gay.
20. Kisses are the best when . . .they are in the snow.
21. Today I . . .was paranoid.
22. Tomorrow I'll . . .try to be less paranoid.
23. I really want . . .a wealth of patience.
24. The person i got this off of is . . .a chump.
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| Friday, August 4th, 2006
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10:08 am
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I have no idea how to express this feeling.
I feel like I have so much on my plate right now, but I really don't, at all.
I'm going nowhere.
I'm going to start applying and auditioning for schools again this time around,
but what if I hate that too?
I have a lot of other people's problems on me too, not that I mind, it just gets confusing.
I don't know. I didn't want to write an entry like this, so I apologize for that.
I just feel so lost.
(And not in the freaky island with polar bears, four-toed statues, and slave ships sort of way.)
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| Friday, July 28th, 2006
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8:48 pm
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| Monday, July 17th, 2006
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12:47 pm
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| Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
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10:01 pm
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| Monday, July 3rd, 2006
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12:01 pm
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| Saturday, April 15th, 2006
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1:04 am
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okay...
you've probably heard me talk about the coca-cola blak tv ads...
because they're beautiful.
well, i never thought i would like the product.
i passed it tonight at the grocery store and decided to pick up a four pack and give it a try.
i
love
it.
who knew that coke+coffee would be so darn delicious.
i'm in love.
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